Assalamualaikum bloggers :)
its been a long time , right ? miss me ? haha ^^ OKayy , straight to the points .. there's so many things happen lately .. i mean SO MUCH =.= there's sad , happy and a annoyed things .. but its okayy .. i'll be fine ^^ i'm a tough girl , remember ?
hmm ~ newest thing that happen to me is about the gossip between me and my COUSIN (?) haha ! it just a joke that my family made but its .. -.- uh ! i hate gossip . Another thing is about me and my dream ... haha ! this dream totally freak me out ! even now i can still remember each part of it .. uhghhh ~ NOT TELLING .
As conclusion , i think everything goes smoothly for this month .. i hope it'll be better next .. i wishh .. :) so ! happy holiday and i'll meet you later at the next post .. bye !
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
THE SADDEST YEAR EVER :(
Assalamualaikum all ~
I know its been ages since i update my blogg.I'm just to busy to suit mysef in form 4 life.In 3 weeks of school,so many things happen.What worse is,my friends are all leaving.No,my BESTFRIEND.We're the 3 'sisters'.I felt really lost because after Afifah leave for TEKNIK GOMBAK,form 4 girls prefect have only me and asilla.JUST THE TWO OF US managing the whole form 4 girls !
All other members has resigned.After this,Asilla will leave me for her TEKNIK LANGKAWI.And BAM ! i was all alone.Totally a shit ! i really hate form 4 this year ! other things is,i got the prinsip akauan class.We got ekonomi asas,akaun and add math.But 'they' said if half of 4A leaves for boarding school,we the member of class 4B will be transfered to pure science class ! WTF ?!!! we don't even have a chance to choose our own class ? IT US WHO WILL BE STUDYING AND ITS OUR RESULT YOU WILL BE RUIN ON !!!!!! What if we can't take the pure science ? will you be responsible for our SPM's result ? Will you be responsible if we can't get throught any of the unversities ?
GOSH ! SMK DAMANSARA DAMAI 1 ! please change !! I know what i will do , if they force us to got to 4A class,i'm going to beg my mom to transfer me to the new school and i don't wanna give a damn in this school again !
and next week is a holiday ! yeay ! Afifah will come back for holiday ... !! :) but after holiday .. Asilla will gone to Langkawi :(
p/s : me,being alone in this school.I've never imagined that.
I know its been ages since i update my blogg.I'm just to busy to suit mysef in form 4 life.In 3 weeks of school,so many things happen.What worse is,my friends are all leaving.No,my BESTFRIEND.We're the 3 'sisters'.I felt really lost because after Afifah leave for TEKNIK GOMBAK,form 4 girls prefect have only me and asilla.JUST THE TWO OF US managing the whole form 4 girls !
All other members has resigned.After this,Asilla will leave me for her TEKNIK LANGKAWI.And BAM ! i was all alone.Totally a shit ! i really hate form 4 this year ! other things is,i got the prinsip akauan class.We got ekonomi asas,akaun and add math.But 'they' said if half of 4A leaves for boarding school,we the member of class 4B will be transfered to pure science class ! WTF ?!!! we don't even have a chance to choose our own class ? IT US WHO WILL BE STUDYING AND ITS OUR RESULT YOU WILL BE RUIN ON !!!!!! What if we can't take the pure science ? will you be responsible for our SPM's result ? Will you be responsible if we can't get throught any of the unversities ?
GOSH ! SMK DAMANSARA DAMAI 1 ! please change !! I know what i will do , if they force us to got to 4A class,i'm going to beg my mom to transfer me to the new school and i don't wanna give a damn in this school again !
and next week is a holiday ! yeay ! Afifah will come back for holiday ... !! :) but after holiday .. Asilla will gone to Langkawi :(
p/s : me,being alone in this school.I've never imagined that.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Friday, January 06, 2012
BOLD WHAT APPLIES TO YOU
- I am a male.
- I am a girl
- I am shorter than 5’4.
- I have many scars.
- I tan easily.
- I wish my hair was a different color.
- I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
- I have a tattoo.
- I want a tattoo.
- I am self-conscious about my body.
- I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
- I have more than 2 piercings.
- I have a piercing in a place other than my ears
- I have freckles.
- I’ve sworn at my parents.
- I’ve run away from home.
- I’ve been kicked out of the house.
- I have a sibling less than one year old.
- I want to have kids someday.
- I’m in school.
- I’ve lost a child.
- I have a job.
- I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
- I always do/did my homework.
- I’ve missed a week or more of school.
- I failed more than 1 class last year.
- I’ve stolen something from my job.
- I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
- Disney movies still make me cry.
- I’ve peed from laughing.
- I’ve snorted while laughing
- I’ve cried from laughing so hard.
- I’ve glued my hand to something.
- I’ve had my pants rip in public.
- I was born with a disease/impairment.
- I’ve broken a bone.
- I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
- I’ve had my tonsils removed.
- I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
- I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
- I had a serious surgery.
- I’ve had chicken pox.
- I’ve had measles.
- I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
- I’ve been on a plane.
- I’ve been to Canada.
- I’ve been to Mexico.
- I’ve been to Niagra Falls.
- I’ve been to Japan.
- I’ve been to Africa.
- I’ve been to Hawaii.
- I’ve gotten lost in my city.
- I’ve seen a shooting star.
- I’ve wished on a shooting star.
- I’ve seen a meteor shower.
- I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
- I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
- I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
- I’ve been to a casino.
- I’ve been skydiving.
- I’ve gone skinny dipping.
- I’ve played spin the bottle.
- I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
- I’ve crashed a car.
- I’ve been skiing.
- I’ve been in a play.
- I’ve met someone in person from Facebook.
- I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
- I’ve seen the Northern lights.
- I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
- I’ve played chicken.
- I’ve played a prank on someone
- I’ve ridden in a taxi.
- I’ve seen Rocky Horror Picture Show.
- I’ve eaten sushi.
- I’ve been snowboarding.
- I’m single
forever - I’m in a “it’s complicated” relationship.
- I’m in a relationship.
- I’m engaged.
- I’m married.
- I’ve gone on a blind date.
- I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
- I miss someone right now.
- I have a fear of abandonment.
- I’ve gotten divorced.
- I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
- I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
- I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
- I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
- I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
- I’ve been kissed in the rain.
- I’ve hugged a stranger.
- I have kissed a stranger.
- I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
- I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
- I’ve snuck out of my house.
- I have lied to my parents about where I am.
- I am keeping a secret from the world.
- I’ve cheated while playing a game.
- I’ve cheated on a test.
- I’ve ran a red light.
- I’ve been suspended from school.
- I’ve witnessed a crime.
- I’ve been in a fist fight.
- I’ve been arrested.
- I’ve passed out from drinking.
- I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
- I’ve smoked.
- I’ve smoked weed.
- I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
- I’ve eaten mushrooms.
- I’ve popped E.
- I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
- I’ve done hard drugs.
- I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
- I have 3 pills at a time no problem.
- I have been diagnosed with depression.
- I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorders.
- I’ve taken an anti-depressant.
- I have been anorexic or bulimic
- I’ve slept an entire day without needing to go pee.
- I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
- I’ve woken up crying.
- I’m afraid of dying.
- I hate funerals.
- I’ve seen someone dying.
- Someone close to me has committed suicide
- I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
- I own over 5 rap CDs.
- I own an IPod or an MP3 player.
- I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
- I own something from Hot Topic.
- I own something from Pac Sun.
- I collect comic books.
Thursday, January 05, 2012
I LOVE HIM BUT I LIKE 'HIM'
Assalamualaikum w.b.t =)
2nd day of school .. quite good =) but .. the add math class make me down -.- There is this teacher who really LOVE to 'attack' me in class since LAST YEAR ! She taught us mathematics last year and i always got E for her subject.HAHA! maybe thats why she worried(?) and always saying this and that to me.But,the tone and the way she told me it was REALLY annoyed me ! -.- and this year she is my add.math teacher and the first thing she said to me is "Afiah,are you sure you wanna take add math class ? please think it back.I really mean it.THINK IT BACK" .Wasn't that annoying ? but i do think of that.I don't sure myself whether i can do the add.math or not.
Okayy~let it be .I'll think it later.I now,you guys are anxious about the title right ? huhu ~ this is how the story goes >> i've just broke up with MR.S.But,till now i really do love him and its not change.But then,there is one guy.i'll named him as MR.A .He is my classmate last year.Automatically,he's my friend and last year he fall for my friend.He ask me to help him to get that girl but it's a failue and HE'S REJECTED.Well, after that we start to get close.Talking this and that every night and everytime we have a free time.We shared and talk about lot of things.
After all this time,i'm gettin used to him be around me.One day,he told me that he got an offer from a boarding school.Honestly,when i read his messages i felt a little hurt inside.I ask him whether he want to accept or not.He said he don't want but his father force him to.So,he told me that he's going.And i don't know why i felt really hurt and feels like half of me is gone.I feel really lost.And i know,i will miss him.
Is it wrong if i said I LOVE MR.S (still) BUT I LIKE MR.A ? Am i a bad girl ? UH ~ and tomorrow is the only day i get a chance to see MR.A cause next week he's already ..... leave.Gosh ~ i already miss him.But ! its still not too late to kill this feelings for him.Yeahh ~ i need to kill this LIKE feeling for him.Can i ? or i'll just miss him more ? uh ~~ I HATE THIS FEELING :( ..
But,for me and mr.s.We both know that its hard for us to be together again.I mean,if he rather love than fight(?) i would lay my armour down and we'll be together again.Will we ? time will decide everything..
MR.A,can't you just stay and be here with me?i need you too badly :( . i think i'm going to cry on the day you leave.I wish i could tell you my feeling but it'll just ruin our friendship.I rather be as friend then you'll never talk to me after i confess.My feelings,i'll try to end it.Ohmyy ~ T.T .. uh ~ take care and please come back.I hope you won't find someone else and realize that there is me here .. waiting(?) haha ! .. goodbye .. we'll see each other again.InsyaALLAH ..
MR.A,when you'll start to text me and saying you're sorry ? You just to egois ! you know how much i love you before but you're just easily .. let me go .. hu ~ i hope that one day i'll receive a text messages from you saying you're sorry for everything and how you treated me.Is it so hard ? i know deep in my heart ,.. i want YOU back but i know that it'll make me hurt more.
p/s : if i need to choose , i'll make up with mr.s and just stay as friend with mr.a.Err,maybe .. :) night ^^
2nd day of school .. quite good =) but .. the add math class make me down -.- There is this teacher who really LOVE to 'attack' me in class since LAST YEAR ! She taught us mathematics last year and i always got E for her subject.HAHA! maybe thats why she worried(?) and always saying this and that to me.But,the tone and the way she told me it was REALLY annoyed me ! -.- and this year she is my add.math teacher and the first thing she said to me is "Afiah,are you sure you wanna take add math class ? please think it back.I really mean it.THINK IT BACK" .Wasn't that annoying ? but i do think of that.I don't sure myself whether i can do the add.math or not.
Okayy~let it be .I'll think it later.I now,you guys are anxious about the title right ? huhu ~ this is how the story goes >> i've just broke up with MR.S.But,till now i really do love him and its not change.But then,there is one guy.i'll named him as MR.A .He is my classmate last year.Automatically,he's my friend and last year he fall for my friend.He ask me to help him to get that girl but it's a failue and HE'S REJECTED.Well, after that we start to get close.Talking this and that every night and everytime we have a free time.We shared and talk about lot of things.
After all this time,i'm gettin used to him be around me.One day,he told me that he got an offer from a boarding school.Honestly,when i read his messages i felt a little hurt inside.I ask him whether he want to accept or not.He said he don't want but his father force him to.So,he told me that he's going.And i don't know why i felt really hurt and feels like half of me is gone.I feel really lost.And i know,i will miss him.
Is it wrong if i said I LOVE MR.S (still) BUT I LIKE MR.A ? Am i a bad girl ? UH ~ and tomorrow is the only day i get a chance to see MR.A cause next week he's already ..... leave.Gosh ~ i already miss him.But ! its still not too late to kill this feelings for him.Yeahh ~ i need to kill this LIKE feeling for him.Can i ? or i'll just miss him more ? uh ~~ I HATE THIS FEELING :( ..
But,for me and mr.s.We both know that its hard for us to be together again.I mean,if he rather love than fight(?) i would lay my armour down and we'll be together again.Will we ? time will decide everything..
MR.A,can't you just stay and be here with me?i need you too badly :( . i think i'm going to cry on the day you leave.I wish i could tell you my feeling but it'll just ruin our friendship.I rather be as friend then you'll never talk to me after i confess.My feelings,i'll try to end it.Ohmyy ~ T.T .. uh ~ take care and please come back.I hope you won't find someone else and realize that there is me here .. waiting(?) haha ! .. goodbye .. we'll see each other again.InsyaALLAH ..
MR.A,when you'll start to text me and saying you're sorry ? You just to egois ! you know how much i love you before but you're just easily .. let me go .. hu ~ i hope that one day i'll receive a text messages from you saying you're sorry for everything and how you treated me.Is it so hard ? i know deep in my heart ,.. i want YOU back but i know that it'll make me hurt more.
p/s : if i need to choose , i'll make up with mr.s and just stay as friend with mr.a.Err,maybe .. :) night ^^
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
a short update for today ..
i'm not going to talk about the first day of school cause it suck.I want to share about something that really hurt me to see.
Today,you showed my your tears.For the first time,you burst into tears infront of me in SCHOOL.You know what,i kinda love that moment when you cried because that means you really love and appriciate me as your friend.But,i felt hurt seeing you cry like that.If i'm not strong enough,i would cry also.
Tick tock tick tock .. only 2 days left for we hanging out together.Time being such a jealousy.Goshh ~ i can't believe you're going.I don't know how should i face it.I'll MISS you so much.So muchh ~~.Honestly,everytime i think that you'll be leaving automatically i'll cry.I don't want you to go .. ~ such a selfish friend.haha !
I can't write anymore.My eyes is tearing too much.Take care buddy.I LOVE YOU
p/s ; A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world
i'm not going to talk about the first day of school cause it suck.I want to share about something that really hurt me to see.
Today,you showed my your tears.For the first time,you burst into tears infront of me in SCHOOL.You know what,i kinda love that moment when you cried because that means you really love and appriciate me as your friend.But,i felt hurt seeing you cry like that.If i'm not strong enough,i would cry also.
Tick tock tick tock .. only 2 days left for we hanging out together.Time being such a jealousy.Goshh ~ i can't believe you're going.I don't know how should i face it.I'll MISS you so much.So muchh ~~.Honestly,everytime i think that you'll be leaving automatically i'll cry.I don't want you to go .. ~ such a selfish friend.haha !
I can't write anymore.My eyes is tearing too much.Take care buddy.I LOVE YOU
p/s ; A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world
Monday, January 02, 2012
LAST HANGOUT 2011
Assalamualaikum,
its been a long time since i update my blog.Hmm..jaljinesseo?Yesterday i had my last hangout with asilla and afifah.Along with Asilla's cousin,iqa and her friend kak.mira.We had fun! This time,we're not going to watch movies but acting more lady-like,we went for a WINDOW SHOPPING ! woohoo ~ haha !Well guys,we are 16 and its a normal teenagers do right?Plus,its YEAR END SALE !A lot of discount ! At padini's store,afifah bought a watch for asilla's farewell gift.Forgot to mention that asilla are going to SMV LANGKAWI to continued her studies in business.I hope she'll do well.
after that,we wandering around THE CURVE,going in and out of store like a rich girl having a window shopping.HAHA ! And for me i've bought a blouse(?) for asilla.And she bought us a BFF's necklace.After had enough at THE CURVE,we went to ONE UTAMA and more shopping.Pass 5 hour,we headed back :) I'll show u some pictures we snap together !
its been a long time since i update my blog.Hmm..jaljinesseo?Yesterday i had my last hangout with asilla and afifah.Along with Asilla's cousin,iqa and her friend kak.mira.We had fun! This time,we're not going to watch movies but acting more lady-like,we went for a WINDOW SHOPPING ! woohoo ~ haha !Well guys,we are 16 and its a normal teenagers do right?Plus,its YEAR END SALE !A lot of discount ! At padini's store,afifah bought a watch for asilla's farewell gift.Forgot to mention that asilla are going to SMV LANGKAWI to continued her studies in business.I hope she'll do well.
after that,we wandering around THE CURVE,going in and out of store like a rich girl having a window shopping.HAHA ! And for me i've bought a blouse(?) for asilla.And she bought us a BFF's necklace.After had enough at THE CURVE,we went to ONE UTAMA and more shopping.Pass 5 hour,we headed back :) I'll show u some pictures we snap together !
the necklace
snap by;atiqah
afifah and me ^^
this is after asilla's left
lunch time!
