i shouldnt fall in love .........

I just can't seems to let him go.I'm a fool ! why did i fall too much for him ? When he replied my message tellin' me "you are better than me huh .. u able making me cry,heartbreak and happy within a day...".I was reading that and "....CRY.." ?? . i was like "what! he did ? ".I felt sorry for him though.I was thinking am i really mean that much to him ? 

Pass 2 days , asyraf told me was chatting with him and he told me everything that MR.S told him.As a conclusion that asyraf made , MR.S still can't let me go (?) and he really did love me.Once again i was told to treat him better.WTH ?! from the day we know , i was the only one who treat him better ! and you ask me to treat him better like what ! 

GOSH ! even then, i still think about MR.S feeling.I was thinking did he really hurt and should i give him another chance.I dont know.I dont hve any confidence to continue this relationship.I'm afraid,i'm the one who will hurt again and again.

i hate this feeling.I shouldnt fall in this relationship ! too stupid right ? :) 

ahhh !! !! !! i hate you ! i hate you ! T.T so much ............... 

p/s : and we were just kids in love right .. ?

I DID IT FOR YOU

Minutes turn to hours
Hours turn to days
Knew what I had to do
Couldn't find the words to say
Had the perfect story
Stories have an end
Had to turn the page cause
To keep you was a sin oh ~

You know I loved you with
(Everything that I had)
But what you needed I
{Couldn't be, held you back)
I cared enough about you
To give you the chance
To find someone who care

I broke your heart
(I did it for you)
Tore us apart
(I did it for you)
Just walked away
(I did it for you) Oh ~
For you ~

You wouldn't want my everything
(did it for you)
Someone you knew that I couldn't be
(did it for you)
Why don't you ever understand me
But its true, its true
I did it for you, for you ~

I could say I'm sorry
Wouldn't mean a thing
Tell you what you want to hear
Baby what you wanted wasn't for me
Held you by a string
Had to cut you loose
Cause forever something we can't be

You know I loved you with
(Everything that I had)
But what you needed I
{Couldn't be, held you back)
I cared enough about you
To give you the chance
To find someone who care

I broke your heart
(I did it for you)
Tore us apart
(I did it for you)
Just walked away
(I did it for you ) Oh
For you

You wouldn't want my everything
(did it for you)
Someone you knew that I couldn't be
(did it for you)
Why don't you ever understand me
But its true, its true
I did it for you ~

They say the ones that you love
Are the ones you hurt the most
For all the pain that I've caused you
Baby I'm sorry ~

I did it for you~
(I did it for you)
Tore us apart
I'm so sorry babe
(did it for you)
Just walked away
I did it for you, for you ~

You wouldn't wanted my everything, everything ~
(did it for you)
Someone you knew that I couldn't be
(did it for you)
Why don't you ever understand me
But its true, its true
I did it for you, for you ~




p/s : that day when i said i've given up i know you hurt but it hurt me more.I'm sorry but you deserve   
        better.even then , i know its hard for me.Everything that i said , its not a lie .  

why am i still waiting ?

i want to write about my feeling.But words can't describe how much i dissapointed on you.I felt like i want to cry but it just not worth anymore.Cause you dont even care.I've keep this thing 11 months and it hurt me so much.Hurt that you can't even tell.

YOU JUST DONT CARE ABOUT MY FEELING , I'VE CONSIDERATE TOO MUCH AND THIS TIME IF I WALK AWAY DONT ASK ME TO GO BACK.CAUSE I'M NOT TURNING ANYMORE.

I've had enough.Cause i think sometimes it better to push someone away.Not because i stop loving but because i need to shield myself from pain.The pain you cause wont show on my face unless someone watch my eyes as you walk by.

I think this relationship is going nowhere if you continue being like this.I know you dont want to think about it.But at least , think about me.Yes,you watched me being tough,you watched me smiling all day .You should know i'm the best actresses to hide all those feelings.

You know why i dont take this seriously on the first place ? because i want to give you a chance.I gave you a lot of chance to change yourself and win me back.But you think it as a game and i'm sorry , you've got no chance after this.I'm tired waiting you to change.Now,i need to do what i should do on the first place.I'm not going back.I wont turning back.Get a life without me.It should be better.Isnt it ?


          "you meet someone. you two get close. it’s all great for awhile. then someone stops trying. talk less.       awkward conversations. the drifting. no communication whatsoever. memories start to fade. then that person you know becomes that person you knew. that’s how it usually goes, right? sad isn’t it. "




p/s : I WANT YOU TO BE HERE WITH ME BUT I'VE NO CHOICE YOU'VE GOTTA LEAVE . 

before it explode

It's not a question of love,
Cause our love has never changed.
But all the little things keep piling up,
And life keeps getting in the way.

Don't make this harder than it is,
We both knew it'd come to this.
Better now than in a year,
With lots of tears,
And we both hate each other.
The fuse has already left,
So how about a final kiss?
And just let it go

Let's Stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
Before it's out of our control.
Let's stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
We gotta let it go,
Before it all explodes.

Some things we won't understand,
And we're both so tired of being misunderstood.
So let's just turn and walk away,
And hold on to what was good.

Don't make this harder than it is,
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com 
We both knew it'd come to this.
Better now than in a year,
With lots of tears,
And we both hate each other.
The fuse has already left,
So how about a final kiss?
And just let it go

Let's Stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
Before it's out of our control.
Let's stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
We gotta let it go,
Before it all explodes.

Before it explodes!
Before it's out of our control.
Let's stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
We gotta let it go,
Before it all explodes.

NOTE TO GUY

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ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD

Happy Anniversary to both of U,
Who R one soul and body two,
Dipped in a love simply true.
It was love at first sight,
This touched the heart,
Straight from the eyes,
Turning your life more bright,
With a life partner absolutely right.
Life was like heaven,
In 2006, month of seven,
Made everything forgotten,
With every moment lighten.
Today, your union of three years,
Hold sweet memories of cheer,
Along with some shades of tears,
But never caught fear,
When found each other very near.
May god shower lots of blessings
With good and new things happening,
And fulfill each and every desire,
Without anything missing.

Sapna Golecha

p/s : this is only intro ^^ we will make a suprise anniversary party for our parents on 25th october a.k.a this friday.Wish our luck ! i'll update again about this event !!

A LIFE AFTER PMR

heyy peeps ! ^^

 hows you guys life going ? exciting ? whatever it takes just live every moment.As you guys know i'm a PR candidate 2011 and we're just done having our WAR a couple of days ago.I'd think i'll rate it as 65% over 100% . Well , for MATH . its 50-50 in P1 and 95% easy in P2.I wish i can score well in P2 cause it my only hope to get marks.

Next >> i am sure all the candidates have a program after PMR right ? how is it ? is it fun ? Mine was not (for the first day though) but it was fun on the second day.At least we're moving.I mean ike the first day,the teachers just told us to sit and listen.But for the second,we're moving around.Do the activity together.It was fun.

Today we had a competition called "DRESS FROM NEWSPAPER".We need to design something from the newspaper and make it to a dress or something.At first,we are all like "WTF! NEWSPAPER?HOW WE'RE GOIN TO DO ABOUT THAT?" but at the end we had a lot of fun and the cooperation between is is the BEST.And guest what , we WIN 1ST place !!! we're so proud of our work ! . And of course our cute model  ,AFIFAH make it more interesting :)

For the second activity is cooking.They called it "MASTERCHEF DIDIANS".We need to do something according to the thing given.They gave us bread,vegies and other .... .As our group,we're not prepared ANYTHING! even a single knife.So,we just use our creativity to make the SANDWICH.And we're not expected anything cause we dont have any additional plate,any other thing to make it more pretty.We just what they gave and our brain to make it NICE.And we WIN again but this time its 3RD.It was pretty interesting because other group hve so many pretty decoration and ours just use the thing they gave and POOF! we WIN.

And the most proud moment when our group are the ony girl group that win the MASTER CHEF competition.At least , the girl power are still there :) Lastly , i wanna thank my group members for today ADLEEN,ASILLA,HAWA,NABILA,HAZIRAH,FATIHAH,SYAFIQAH,AFIFAH,MAZ, AND NATASHA.You guyss are the best and thanks for today :)