ohh hai ..
i'm not in mood today.Just want to release my anger or should i say jealousy(?).yeahh ~ maybe i did.Shorting the story,today i see Mr.S and Mrs.F (new admirer of him) sitting together.I'm coming early today the i saw both of them sitting next to each other,closely.And i was hurt.So much.Why he can do that while he can't with me.I want an explanantion,WHY WHY WHY and WHY ?! I am stupid cause i still think of him while he had move on and don't even think about me.How stupid was that ? Is he really a coward for not explain to me why he did all that to me ? I wish i've never fall for him.NEVER.cause its hurt so much :( . So much until i cried now.
thank you Mr.S .. thank you so much
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Sunday, February 05, 2012
I STILL CARE
heyy peeps ..
Today i have nothing to do so i log in my blogger and scroll down all my old post.It gave me a big laugh ! yeah , i know .. i'm laughing to something i wrote by my own.But .. you guys should try it sometime.It makes you realize how you are from the past and how much you've changed.Well~ sometimes we change even without we notice (i think my eng is gettin' terible -.-)
Okayy so i scroll down and i found the post i wrote about MR.S.then i realized how much i fall for him.I realized how much i love him before and i keep thinking is the love i had for him before have already gone ? for love , i dont have the answer yet.But if u ask me if i still care for him AS A FRIEND,i did and i really care.Cause he once be part of my life and i dont want anything happen to him.Its not wrong right ?
As i read all the post,i feel like a crazy mad girl who falling hard for this boy -.- . And that time,i realize that love really mad people goes crazy.*smile* I read,read and read.I found that myself really missed him.So much.I wonder what he will do if he read all the post i wrote about him.*smirk* i guess he will say "ohmyy! i really did drive a girl go crazy" or this is what i dreamed of " gosh! she really love me,why did i treat her like a trash?! how stupid i am" huhu ~~ it just what i want him to say.
I wish when i died,someone will print out all the post i wrote and show it to him so that he know how much i love him and how much i dissapointed on how he treated me.I hope he realized one day that he lost someone that really loved him.Euyy ! am i not too young to say all that ? huft ~ whatever. I love him so i should say it , right ?
HAHA ! okayy , you guys must be tired cause i repeat 'i love him' like thousands ! SORRY ! but i can't hold it ..
i should end this late night writing now . ~ bye :) lot of love from me .
OHHH !! SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL.
Today i have nothing to do so i log in my blogger and scroll down all my old post.It gave me a big laugh ! yeah , i know .. i'm laughing to something i wrote by my own.But .. you guys should try it sometime.It makes you realize how you are from the past and how much you've changed.Well~ sometimes we change even without we notice (i think my eng is gettin' terible -.-)
Okayy so i scroll down and i found the post i wrote about MR.S.then i realized how much i fall for him.I realized how much i love him before and i keep thinking is the love i had for him before have already gone ? for love , i dont have the answer yet.But if u ask me if i still care for him AS A FRIEND,i did and i really care.Cause he once be part of my life and i dont want anything happen to him.Its not wrong right ?
As i read all the post,i feel like a crazy mad girl who falling hard for this boy -.- . And that time,i realize that love really mad people goes crazy.*smile* I read,read and read.I found that myself really missed him.So much.I wonder what he will do if he read all the post i wrote about him.*smirk* i guess he will say "ohmyy! i really did drive a girl go crazy" or this is what i dreamed of " gosh! she really love me,why did i treat her like a trash?! how stupid i am" huhu ~~ it just what i want him to say.
I wish when i died,someone will print out all the post i wrote and show it to him so that he know how much i love him and how much i dissapointed on how he treated me.I hope he realized one day that he lost someone that really loved him.Euyy ! am i not too young to say all that ? huft ~ whatever. I love him so i should say it , right ?
HAHA ! okayy , you guys must be tired cause i repeat 'i love him' like thousands ! SORRY ! but i can't hold it ..
i should end this late night writing now . ~ bye :) lot of love from me .
OHHH !! SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL.
Friday, February 03, 2012
THIS CRUSH THING NEED TO END
Hai again bloggers ..
I'm not in a good mood today so i decided to take a few minutes to update my blog.Well, yeah ~ i'm going to talk about my crush .. Honestly, its my 2nd crush on him ... Hmm ~ i've like him when i was grade 4.Back then,it was a little kid crush.No need to take serious.
After 6 years,those feeling comeback and this time worst -.-.Gosh ~ i hate when i like him but i can't seem to tell him.*rolleyes* i need a lot of encouragement to do that.But i know now,this crush thing need to end now.I need to stop.FOR REAL ! He's my friend afterall .. i don't this stupid crush thing make him uncomfortable around me.
So,i guess this is the end.Me, Nurafiah dilla announced that i'll stop FOR REAL to hve thos crush thing to MR.A :) kkeut ~
For those who still think about me hve a feelings for MR.S (STILL) .. well , i think i'm not but i do know i still care about him.Deep in me , i still care for him and i want to befriends with him again.But,i guess its not going to happen.He avoid me and not talking to me.Not a single word.I really felt dissapointed.I really want him to take the first step to try and talk to me.Maybe as a friend ? there's must be a reason why.I think 1.HE REALLY DONT WANNA HAVE ANY REALTIONSHIP WITH ME AFTER ALL I SAID TO HIM . 2.HE STILL LOVED ME AND CAN'T TAKE TO THINK ME AS HIS FRIEND (i'm so full ofmyself,i know ---.).But still,it might be one of those reason right ? frankly speaking , i really miss him.So much and some times i watch him for far.When i walked passed him,i still felt my heart beating like crazy -.- . How stupid i am ? i love him but i stil dare to say i want him after all i said to him is break up.But,whos wrong in this actually.Gosh ! i'm really really sad . ~~ i can't bear watching him talking with another girl while he donsn't say a word to me.Its really hurting.And i want him to know ..
Heyy MR.S , could you get back to yourself and talk to me please ? i'n dying cause i miss you voice so much .. i know i look pathetic afteri said to you that i want a break up.(but wht ! its your fault too) . I've said in my last message that you can avoid me as much as you want but i don't mean it.But you take it serious and avoiding me all time.Its really frustrated to being in this situation.COme on boy ! hve a courage to talk to me.even you said HI , i will smile happily all day long.I just want you to look in my eyes and talk to me.But i know , its not going to happen because we're not friend amymore ..
I'm not in a good mood today so i decided to take a few minutes to update my blog.Well, yeah ~ i'm going to talk about my crush .. Honestly, its my 2nd crush on him ... Hmm ~ i've like him when i was grade 4.Back then,it was a little kid crush.No need to take serious.
After 6 years,those feeling comeback and this time worst -.-.Gosh ~ i hate when i like him but i can't seem to tell him.*rolleyes* i need a lot of encouragement to do that.But i know now,this crush thing need to end now.I need to stop.FOR REAL ! He's my friend afterall .. i don't this stupid crush thing make him uncomfortable around me.
So,i guess this is the end.Me, Nurafiah dilla announced that i'll stop FOR REAL to hve thos crush thing to MR.A :) kkeut ~
For those who still think about me hve a feelings for MR.S (STILL) .. well , i think i'm not but i do know i still care about him.Deep in me , i still care for him and i want to befriends with him again.But,i guess its not going to happen.He avoid me and not talking to me.Not a single word.I really felt dissapointed.I really want him to take the first step to try and talk to me.Maybe as a friend ? there's must be a reason why.I think 1.HE REALLY DONT WANNA HAVE ANY REALTIONSHIP WITH ME AFTER ALL I SAID TO HIM . 2.HE STILL LOVED ME AND CAN'T TAKE TO THINK ME AS HIS FRIEND (i'm so full ofmyself,i know ---.).But still,it might be one of those reason right ? frankly speaking , i really miss him.So much and some times i watch him for far.When i walked passed him,i still felt my heart beating like crazy -.- . How stupid i am ? i love him but i stil dare to say i want him after all i said to him is break up.But,whos wrong in this actually.Gosh ! i'm really really sad . ~~ i can't bear watching him talking with another girl while he donsn't say a word to me.Its really hurting.And i want him to know ..
Heyy MR.S , could you get back to yourself and talk to me please ? i'n dying cause i miss you voice so much .. i know i look pathetic afteri said to you that i want a break up.(but wht ! its your fault too) . I've said in my last message that you can avoid me as much as you want but i don't mean it.But you take it serious and avoiding me all time.Its really frustrated to being in this situation.COme on boy ! hve a courage to talk to me.even you said HI , i will smile happily all day long.I just want you to look in my eyes and talk to me.But i know , its not going to happen because we're not friend amymore ..
