Hai again bloggers ..
I'm not in a good mood today so i decided to take a few minutes to update my blog.Well, yeah ~ i'm going to talk about my crush .. Honestly, its my 2nd crush on him ... Hmm ~ i've like him when i was grade 4.Back then,it was a little kid crush.No need to take serious.
After 6 years,those feeling comeback and this time worst -.-.Gosh ~ i hate when i like him but i can't seem to tell him.*rolleyes* i need a lot of encouragement to do that.But i know now,this crush thing need to end now.I need to stop.FOR REAL ! He's my friend afterall .. i don't this stupid crush thing make him uncomfortable around me.
So,i guess this is the end.Me, Nurafiah dilla announced that i'll stop FOR REAL to hve thos crush thing to MR.A :) kkeut ~
For those who still think about me hve a feelings for MR.S (STILL) .. well , i think i'm not but i do know i still care about him.Deep in me , i still care for him and i want to befriends with him again.But,i guess its not going to happen.He avoid me and not talking to me.Not a single word.I really felt dissapointed.I really want him to take the first step to try and talk to me.Maybe as a friend ? there's must be a reason why.I think 1.HE REALLY DONT WANNA HAVE ANY REALTIONSHIP WITH ME AFTER ALL I SAID TO HIM . 2.HE STILL LOVED ME AND CAN'T TAKE TO THINK ME AS HIS FRIEND (i'm so full ofmyself,i know ---.).But still,it might be one of those reason right ? frankly speaking , i really miss him.So much and some times i watch him for far.When i walked passed him,i still felt my heart beating like crazy -.- . How stupid i am ? i love him but i stil dare to say i want him after all i said to him is break up.But,whos wrong in this actually.Gosh ! i'm really really sad . ~~ i can't bear watching him talking with another girl while he donsn't say a word to me.Its really hurting.And i want him to know ..
Heyy MR.S , could you get back to yourself and talk to me please ? i'n dying cause i miss you voice so much .. i know i look pathetic afteri said to you that i want a break up.(but wht ! its your fault too) . I've said in my last message that you can avoid me as much as you want but i don't mean it.But you take it serious and avoiding me all time.Its really frustrated to being in this situation.COme on boy ! hve a courage to talk to me.even you said HI , i will smile happily all day long.I just want you to look in my eyes and talk to me.But i know , its not going to happen because we're not friend amymore ..
